it's hard to explain or maybe it's me making this hard to explain..
i had a really close friend in high school, but he was one of those "in school friends". when we went away to college he got a girlfriend, go figure. and she just so happened to hate me, because she was afraid he'd leave her for me... again, new concept, right? well they recently broke up so he's back in my face. and it's not that i don't like him as a person, i do. it's that i've adjusted. i know life without him and i get by just fine. so letting him back in is hard.. although he doesn't seem to think it should be. i don't like his constant texts and phone calls or how he likes seeing me. i don't like that he has all these old nicknames for me or that he likes to put his arm around me. i don't like that he's overprotective and acts like it's his right to be. i don't like how our "inside jokes" are resurfacing like all this time hasn't passed.
it has, and there's no going back.
i don't want to go back.
Don't go back. One person's loneliness isn't worth being dragged backwards.
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