you have crossed my mind enough today. you have stomped and smashed across my memory. burrowed and dug deep inside my head. don't you understand i'm trying to get over this? pretend you never happened? i want to end it quick before there's nothing left of you to salvage. i love you and i know from experience, that will never go away. but i could love you differently. i could let it turn into something that you would reciprocate; something that wouldn't break my heart over and over again. but i need time.
i could have a dormant love, one that was pushed into my core instead of up against my vulnerable skin. my center is thick, impenetrable, safe from the harm of the chance that you may find someone else to fall for and smile at and send those looks to. i just want you to be happy with someone, something, anything. but i can't keep doing it at my own expense.
so this is me telling you to make your choice: either say the words or let me mend myself.
you can't keep this up, giving me whatever this is. allowing me to rip myself in two.
consider this my vow of silence.
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