And You Want Her but She's so Mean. But You Never Let Her Go. Why don't You Let Her Go?

this is the routine. and by now i've learned to guard my heart for all it's worth and just go with it. i know you don't love me, but i know that more than anything you want to. i can see that you're trying. but why are you trying is the question... do you desperate want love or my love? or are you just so alone that you need someone, anyone? i like you, and the first time this happened you rushed into something and i dragged behind somewhere in the distance. when we stopped, it didn't hurt, it just... well it ended. so this time around i knew what would happen, because you so easily push yourself into love without being in love.
so that's what this will be, loveless love, all the feelings without the knots.