Cover Your Eyes so You don't Know the Secret I've Been Trying to Hide

have you ever just known it's off? just had something happen that made it all click? this wasn't meant to hurt you, i didn't leave because of any wrong doing. i kissed you and it hurt something deep in my core. like it was some sort of gigantic lie...

because you were so convinced i was some kind of great being. someone you wanted to do nothing but love. and i felt that, so i let you kiss me again but still the reaction was the same. i hated you for loving me and i hated myself for not being able to accept it. but most of all, i hated myself for not loving you in return.